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Desending Angles by Misfits Torn from the heavens they fall from the sky walk the streets alone born a man they walk the shadows keepers of the night more to life is free cant call back the keepers the blood more than rain and soon you'll be alone desending angals stand by my side we'll face the nig...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes even thoe i didnt want to what had happened just before? feeling like the world was bottoled up inside of me and then capped off by a degradeing fight of my son what were you thinking and feeling? i want to die i de...

Almost Home byMichale Graves Please....please beleave can't you see this is not me Greff.... I'm filled w/ greff disbleaf ... of it I'll wait ... on the eve enterity yeah Someone here agin they always come around see the other side of relitly the illness up close Sleep ... childeren sleep throw crys...

becuse i made good destions and today marks 2 weeks since my last slip
and i desided that i'm going to stop hdeing adnd being so distant i'm gonnaing to learn how to let people get close to me and help me when i need it

i mailed Alexa

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll be numbed and center my mind some so i wont feel like everything is fake around me what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? bring me back to relaity / bu then hen i get there i'll feel...

cuz i passed my medical math class

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scared

i just joined the wagon

I am proud of myself today becuse I didnt s/i, take any pills, or blow up at anyone.

incignficet, a monster, unsafe, unsure, numb, tried, wide wake

River of Disceat by Mad Season My pain is self chosen at leset so the profit says I could eather butr or cut of my pride and buy some time a head full of lies is always tied to my wast the river of disceat flows down the only dirction it flows is down down oh down My pain is self chosen at lest I be...

What made that opportunity more appealing than any other? becuse i'm stuck in another bing Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking? it was a combo of the two i've been finding myself feeling on self lofeing and my urges What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how wou...

Did I identify what feelings were leading me to want to SI? kind of If Yes - What were they, and how did I figure them out? feeling helpless comepletly helpless and that everythign i do in life i am bound to fail What coping skills did I use to deal with these feelings? my new red marker Were these ...

rejuvintaed neverivs and very urgey

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? it will clam down my raceing thoughts its let me feel in control of something and it vailtdate how i feel what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will give me power over my feeling it'l...

telling me just what my son has been doing all day
and then cutting off the convershoin as soon as i try to talk

everything has been confuesing from the start lol
i try to make better cents in the futuer lol

today so far i chanlled urges into a letter and sent it to her
w/ out being dierespectful or anythign mean
since she flet the need to dangle my son in face this morning

Did I identify what feelings were leading me to want to SI? yea- If Yes - What were they, and how did I figure them out? Did I identify what feelings were leading me to want to SI? becuse i have been stuggleing w/ them for almost amonth What coping skills did I use to deal with these feelings? yelli...