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I'm grateful for having 2 boys to come home to everyday. No matter how rambunctious they are or how chaotic things get, they remind me that my life is so much more than "all about me" and that living is always worth living when I have them in my life.

I have no advice, encouragement or positive words, only to say that I can understand how you are feeling and I am right there with you at this moment.

I've been here before, now here I am again Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in To label me a prodigal would be Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be [Chorus] Turn me around pick me up Undo what I've become Bring me back to the place Of forgiveness and grace I need ...

Like I want to et a tattoo that says Beautiful in Japanese... on the wrist of the arm I cut... just to remind myself, that even though it's ugly outside, it is beautiful still.

Right now I feel conflicted. Today was such a positive day for me. I woke up feeling "strong"... the kind you know is supposed to be devoted to someone else in need. That person was my sister, and I did my best to help her through, while not taking on her burden or getting upset if she went against ...

NOS means "not otherwise specified".... basically it means there's Some personality thing going on... yet not enough of the req's for any specific disorders to be anything set.... glad you were able to write in your journal :) AHHH... that makes sense now. My son has AD/HD combined type with a sub ...

I haven't heard of NOS, was that what you were saying you were diagnosed with? SORRY, it was hard to follow; I haven't finished my morning coffee and it's been a stressful day. When you first start taking meds, especially if you're on some already, they make you tired... trust me, I'm tired all the ...

*standing ovation* I'm proud of you, Candy. Again, you inspire me.

Well it makes me feel inspired to know you're trying and doing a good job. I hate the cliche' one day at a time, but it is true, and you really seem to be benefitting more and more from program and the other thing in your life. God Bless.

I've been a little "off" lately, so I have been away. I just wanted to tell you I miss you and my heart goes out to you daily. It's just hard to watch others hurt, too sometimes, so I've been doing my own thing....but I can't stay away, you know? BUS is all I have for awhile. Keep your chin up

I am doing alright. I finished with my apartment,then my nurse came over to do my medication. I am waiting for my boy-friend to come over,and it is hot outside,glad that I got my cleaning done,early this morning. I am also writing in my journal while I am waiting,and I am taking a break for now. I ...

I am cleaning my apartment and getting things done around here,and when I am done I will write in my journal. I am doing pretty good and I had a great night sleep. I did not do any SI last night, I feel good about myself for that. I am going to enjoy my day and do pleasant things for myself. I am d...

:bluestar: I'm sad because I keep pushing my boyfriend away, just because I know he won't leave, and I take my frustrations out on him. :cystar: I'm happy because I am working on my relationships with all of my family, repairing the damages of my past, and learning to cope and find other things to d...

You know, I was SA as a child, and as a teen, so I know what you're feeling. I have already healed form that, but what I wanted to tell you is that I am glad you're talking about it to a T and making lists of things you can do. Writing a letter to your cousin, sending it or not, would be a great way...

What is your secret? i'm not ok! i am NOT. im screaming on the inside. im so torn up and battered and bruised. the thoughts are back. and i want someone to help me. Why is it a secret? i'm afraid to tell anyone. What are your feelings about this secret? i need to let someone know Why are you tellin...

What is your secret? Everyone knows I SI, but they don't know I do it now sometimes to punish myself over eating issues. I think I'm giving myself a psychological eating disorder, but I don't starve myself or binge and purge. Why is it a secret? Because the last thing I need is for people to think ...

When you asked about self injury, after I NUMEROUSLY told you why I do it, I told you to "Google it!" and you got pissed. DO some fucking research. I can only tell you the same things, and MAYBE, JUST MAYBE hearing about it from a neutral source would help you understand the fucking condition. Why s...

Thanks for clarifying "program"... I was thinking of an outpatient progran part time, just to get into a group to talk and do some therapeutic things. I'd like to do art therapy, and write and share that. What do you do there?

I'm sorry for asking, but I never did know what "program" was?

I just got home with my boy-friend and I am really tired. Thanks for the messages that you sent me,it helped me alot,to understand why I SI and I feel better. I feel alot better and my stomach settled down. I understand what you were tellling me in the messages you sent me,and it helped me alot.I a...