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thanks angelic2122- but how do you hold on when you think your family and friends would be better off without all the chaos that comes with me?? it seems like my dissolusionment hasnt gotten better, and people are getting tired of it. i have a great family, job, house etc. yet i still feel overwhelm...

thanks you two for the input. im still having a hard time not cutting, and i have all the tools i need to stop. i was hoping the seminar would give me more clues, you know? like what alternatives there are to cutting (i know there are plenty on the coping website), from a more scientific point of vi...

hi alexa- the seminar was conducted by an organization called PESI. they have a website too: info@pesi.com., you can also call them at 1800-844-8260. the major objectives of the seminar for me were: identifying the basic goals of self-mutilation, learning the one factor that differentiates self-muti...

this last week i went to a seminar for suicide ideology and self mutilation. it was a great experience (i talked to the instructor for 45 minutes during our lunch break-i think he wants to make me a case study! ha ha) what i learned was that i am an addict first, and a cutter second. i will always b...

thanks notmardy for the encouragement. i go on these waves of emotion that are hard to deal with sometimes. i know 8.5 weeks is a good thing, havent had that much si free time in the last 4 years! i do believe God is stepping in when i cant handle it myself . just need to remember whats important fo...

you know what-its been 8 and a half weeks now since i last cut. im feeling pretty good about myself this past week. i thought about the consequences of my actions with my family and didnt want to hurt them again. thought about how my next si will be ever so deep, and what would that solve? it scares...

so ive got 7 weeks si free. so what. my head is telling me its time again. i cant deal with life on lifes' terms anymore. the compulsion to cut is gnawing at me again. what will it do to my family? my kids will be scared, and my husband disappointed. they will wonder what they could have done differ...

sockr28- what's your plan on how to stop using? do you see a life without drugs and alcohol 20 years from now? i ask because im having some of the same problems as you. i cant be me without drinking or using. but then again-what kind of person do i want to be? i just dont want to feel any of those s...

hey ellen,

dont be sorry, weve all got to start someplace. remember we only count one day at a time. man 23 months no SI, thats awesome! ive got 6 weeks. hope i can do as well as you someday. ive got 5 months drug and alcohol free. lets keep striving for the best!

good luck,

cindy

thanks for getting me straight on the PBS. at first glance i thought like i said, it looked like an ED forum. but i looked through it more thoroughly and found it wasnt. thanks again.

cindy

hey there, im 47 and seem to have had a problem with drugs and alcohol as far back as i care to remember, when i was 15. in the last 4 years ive really tried to be rid of my problems, but when one goes away for awhile, another one pops up. thats what started me cutting 4 years ago. drugs and alcohol...

hey pinkspider- i looked on the please be healthy forum, and from what i could see it was mostly for ED's. i really wish they would consider starting a new forum, just about how drugs and alcohol can interact with cutting. ive had a great response to this thread and know i would use more threads lik...

thanks pink spider for trying for us. ill have to look at the please be healthy forum. ive actually never seen it. but thanks again.

cindy

pink spider-

thats awesome! thanks for asking on our behalf. it seems like a worthwhile topic. i know i would use it. appreciate it tremendously. looking forward to a response.

thanks again!

cindy

hey riseagainst,

that would be great wouldnt it? have a forum on drugs and alcohol? may we could ask the moderator to check into that. im sorry youre having difficulties, i am too.send a thread if you want and we could talk.

stay sober!

cindy

stellagirl- you know, ive tried for a long time to tell my sponsor when i feel like cutting, just dont think they understand what its all about. its like "just dont do it, pick up the phone and call someone". and talking to people who dont have this problem, to me, isnt very helpful. unless its some...

stellagirl- the 12 step program has helped me tremendously. do you have a sponsor, someone who helps you work the steps? that would be a great thing. in my opinion cutting is an addiction that is intertwined with drugging, drinking, spending, sex, etc. you have to treat it individually and with your...

astepawayfromlife, for me, the cutting is the best alternative. dont have another alcohol relapse in me, i'll end up dying, and i know that for a fact. so cutting is the only outlet for me, and i use it only when nothing else works. ei. journaling, running, etc. i just hope i dont go too deep, becau...

hi bballfreak453, many people dont think of cutting as an addiction, but these same people think drinking alcohol is a choice, not a disease, or an addiction. that you have control over whether to drink or not. there are things like cravings, having alcoholic genes,etc. i wish i didnt cut but to me ...

hey stellagirl, you have to start somewhere, and remember the A.A. motto "one day at a time". that takes alot of the pressure off you, just take it easy. i think quitting alcohol has so much to do with cutting, which in my opinion is a whole other addiction. i started my first rehab 4 years ago, and...