bus

I wish I could talk without being held back by worries about what people will think.

Calm.

1) drawing
2) talking to the kind voices in my head
3) visit bus
4) draw
5) go for walks/explore nature
6) talk to my family
7) plan a calm evening just for me...and then do it
make things--crafts and stuff
9) music (play or listen to)
10) draw on myself with marker

you are such a hypocrite.

i wish i had the courage to talk to the guy i like at school. i don't want to propose marriage...I just want to TALK to him.

...and I wish I wasn't so fat.

I'm sad because I'm alone and I'm scared I'll be that way forever.

I'm happy because I helped someone on bus today.

Oh honey...you aren't wrong for wanting your doc to understand your illness. It's their job to help us, not to make us more anxious. I would hope that most Ts and Pdocs understand that you just can't make someone stop using one coping mechanism until they have others. On that note...things that help...

I hear you. I know it doesn't make sense right now...but it will. I promise you. Sometimes I'm lost and confused and the world makes no sense at all, but then other times everything becomes clear, and I can see the path before me and follow it. I know it's really hard to hang on when it feels like t...

Miseria Cantare - AFI.

because sometimes I just want to be part of something, no matter what I have to give up to belong.

I picked mine...because it's part of an art piece I did around the time that I joined bus. Art is really theraputic for me, and often when I can't deal with anything else, I can still do art. Here's the whole art piece if anyone wants to see it. No trigs that I know of. Rather large file though--sor...

flipflopfetish --(((hugs))) I'm sorry it's so difficult. You can do this--but I know hearing that may not really help when it is so hard. Hang in there. I care :purpstar: MusicalMorphine --(((hugs))) I'm sorry you feel that you're failing/screwed. I'm not in a position to say whether you are screwe...

Do you use coping methods (healthy ones... ) in combination or just on their own? Usually one after another--I do one thing until it doesn't seem to be working, then move on to the next--until I feel better. Name something that helps you to cope beginning with the letter 'A'. Um...AFI! Listening to...

little pixie dust - First, you're not alone; many (maybe most) of us sometimes run into situations where it's difficult to hide our SI. Here are my thoughts on your current situation: Certainly go ahead and say something to your PE instructor. You may not even really have to give a reason--I'm extre...

I'd turn my guilt into a huge stone, because it sits in my stomach and keeps me in constant emotional pain.

Everyone - thank you so much. I'm glad to know that I'm not alone in this. :) I do sometimes just say to my brother that I'm not in the mood to hug, but often he still walks off in a huff, saying "You're never in the mood to hug." Still, I think he's starting to understand, and it doesn't bother him...

I wake up with a bloody lip sometimes, or with my fist clenched really tight. Once I woke up to see I was pinching my arm pretty hard. I dunno why this happens...

I'm having trouble doing my art homework, too--and it's a project I'm really excited about! I just keep...not doing it. I keep coming up with reasons to avoid it. And it's due on Tuesday, ack!!

There's a movie on tonight, and I'm going to try to work on my project while watching that.