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I'm really suicidal right now. Completely overstimulated and overwhelmed and I can't calm down. I've tried warm baths, reading a book, rocking back and forth, happier calming music, happy movies I love, writing poetry, blogging, cleaning and- *sighs* I'm taking 18 credits in school (8 classes) and ...

- I have stolen small items from friends since I was very young. I believe if I still have something of someone, then they are safe and we are connected. And if they die, the object I have keeps them alive for me. I think this is some problem with never having fully developed "object permanence". I ...

So, I live in Kansas. I went to the ER the other night and was given fluids for dehydration, moderate ketones, and high blood sugars.....yadda, yadda, yadda. I asked them (crying, practically) for help. I explained that I had already asked my endocrinologist (diabetes doctor) for help and he had to...

Okay. That makes sense. I am 24, by the way...

"Hello" Playground school bell rings again Rain clouds come to play again Has no one told you she's not breathing? Hello I am your mind giving you someone to talk to Hello If I smile and don't believe Soon I know I'll wake from this dream Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken Hello I'm the lie living...

Little soundtrack for recent stuff: Breathe Me (By Sia) Help, I have done it again I have been here many times before Hurt myself again today And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I'm needy Warm me up And breathe me Ouch I have los...

1. Stay busy to distract myself. 2. My plan for when I am very triggered is as follows: - Write it out, Paint it out...get it out somehow - Blast music and sing along - Call a friend and vent indirectly or just as a distraction - Read a book to distract myself - Get my stuffed animals and some cray...