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1) Squishy, wet grass.
2) When my friend Alex leaves me away messages in the morning.
3) Snuggling into my bed.
4) White, wicker chairs.
5) Sunlight coming through open blinds.
6) My cat sitting on my chest.
7) My dog giving me a kiss.
My room being clean.

...because I didn't cry and I actually found myself looking foward to eating and watching a movie.

I'm proud of myself because I did all of my homework that was due today, fed the animals, and have NOT cut.

1) Writing.
2) Going on the computer.
3) Sleeping.
4) Punching things
5) Screaming into pillows
6) Taking a bike ride
7) Playing with my dog.
Watching mind-umbing TV.

Mom: I'd never tell you this, but I know I cut because of you. You made me this way.
Dad: I wish I knew you.
Alex: I was never in love with you but I still love you more than my entire world. You have been unconditionally accepting, my sainted dear boy.

I'm proud of myself because I didn't SI or skip school.

My mom thinks I cut myself for attention but I really do it so that nobody will look too close.

Oh, this is a lovely idea. Thanks. Slightly over a year ago, (last October) I was raped by a friend of mine (yeah, this is going to be a happy story :roll: ). And for about four months after that, I pretended like nothing happened. I kidded myself that it was just drunken sex, nothing wrong with th...

I've never liked myself. I was always weird, different, awkward. I first started hitting myself with rocks and my recorder when I was eight. I'd smash it into my leg until my ankles swelled up so much I couldn't walk and I'd tell my mom I fell in gym or riding my bike. Then, I began scratching my ar...

My mom jokes about it all the time even though she knows I SI. I guess she does it to deflect the seriousness but even though I tell her how much it hurts me she does it anyway.

Right now I feel awful. I'm not in the depressive states I've been in a few times that last months and leave me wishing for death but I do feel incredibly lonely and shut out from the world. I'm glad I've found this site but I can't stop crying because everybody in my offline life thinks I'm crazy. ...